BOO TO EXAMS.. YEAH TO SPCT

WELL exams are like finially over.. so had polo today .. sure was looking forward to today's training.. coz havent been training for weeks... then as usual i didnt go for kallang .. i felt bad .. no becoz im not going kallang but coz i cant train .. i miss it .. then i took train with carol n so happened tht we boarded the same train as the spct guys ... me n carol n ah hei went orchard.. got lots of new shops at wisma ... n it makes me wonder.. whn was the last time i've been there~ headed down to yishun for youth service... felt out of place... properbly coz my heart wasnt there... headed to westmall's bk to eat dinner with church frds.. had only 2-3 tiny mushroom slices in my mushroom swiss burger... couldnt be bothered to complain about it .. as i was too tired...
had some thought running through my head whist walk home .. did i or didnt make the rite decision about quiting canoeing... this Q keeps hunting me ever since my 1st ivp race... n seriously speaking the feeling of confusion sux... the feeling of not noeing wats rite .. wats rong .. wats good n wats bad sux.. i seriously dun noe if ive made the right choice of staying... not tht i dun liek canoeing ... but bcoz i like it too much to an extend of loving it .. it scares me ... i jzu realised tht .. this might be quite personal so i shan't explain futher... ok .. u guys will be going like ' wat the??....i wanan noe more..." ahhaa ... gotch-ya ... well.. for more infro u can contact me or ask me personally.. ahaha ... so basically ... i would say tht its not quite fair for my team mates coz in a long term .. i noe everythign would juz go so oh rong .. n it wouldnt be gd for me too ..~ in the xpect of my christian walk n canoeing .. i wanted very much to speak forth my views to algene whn he asked me certain things today ... but i held back ... now to think of it .. i should have said my views...
jzu wanan encourage u ppl tht u should go for ur dreams n passion since u have the chance... u might be thinking ..huh ?? canoeing ?? wat the heck .. but to some other ppl canoeing means alot to thm .. to me i might think military band? oh goodness.. cant make it ... but to others .. its considered part of their lives... i hope i can change my chains of thoughts as to not judge ppl's interest... but to respect it like how i would wan them to respect mine... well... so much so of a great philisophy... hahaha ... take care dudes~