this week has been an emotional week for me .... a demoralizing one for me ... i alwasy thought tht i have done my best .... n i still stand firm on tht ... but all these were rong in the eyes of others... thts wat i learnt on wed ... i learnt tht its the outside tht ppl sees u .... they dun care how much efford u place .... they juz wnanna mark ur attendance ... if u r there .. means u r good... if u r not there .. means u dun earn where u r now,.... tht preaching on wed really turned my whole perspective around ... how naive of me to think tht they should noe who i m ... how i would react to certain things .. how responsible im ... but thts not wat they see... probly they are juz blinded by winnning ... thinking its the only thing tht exist ... tht was being preached by someone whom i thought should noe me by my character ... not from wat he saw .... but he heard .. he listen .. n believed ... believed in not wat i said .. but wat others said ... n wat others didnt see...

thurs was also quite bad for me .... still thinking about wed's preaching thank god for true frdss who still stand on my side n go through with me these bad times...n i've decided tht i shan;t play polo .... dividing us between the strongest team n the weakest team spells it all out ... i didnt think twice n make tht decision... coz i noe where i stand ... n i dun wanna feel useless anymore for it is ritten there in the sms ...
.n today ... isnt as gd as i thought it will be .... words really can kill .... a 3 inch tongue can kill a 10 foot man ..... ur tongue can either build or destroy someone... thts y we have 2 'gates' our set of teeth n our lips... to guard us in our speech ....
going over serene's place to stay over .... for tht race tht some ppl thinks tht we arent worth for ... but still wat to do ?? backing out last min would be a childish act ... n im not liek thm ... so i shall stay on no matter wat coz wat they say is not true n i shant be defeated by wat i did not do .. coz i do not feel guilty... my reasons are valid